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Hey Pinky,hide my I.D
I just want to thank God for keeping me alive and giving me the health and strength to take care of my daughter and watch her grow. I’m am very much grateful because it is really not easy esp because I have to do it by myself.I was with this guy from high school and now we’re at the college level,though I was older than he was.Anyways,he was not even my type when we met but I was single and willing to give things a try.He was 16 at the time and I was almost 19 so you know he had some level of immaturity that I had to deal with but I decided I was gonna work him and make him what I wanted him to be.Pinky it was so hard because he was so childish and jealous but I made him feel secure and loved and we were growing together.We were together for five years and recently broken up.For approximately three and a half of those five years everything was fine.I mean we had our arguments and disagreements like any normal relationship but nothing major yk.

When he was 19 I was 21,I got pregnant and everything changed.Nothing was planned or even expected,it just happened.My pregnancy was so rough,I was so sick and traumatized because of everything I went through.He treated me well on and off through out my pregnancy and I tell you pinky I was mentally and emotionally unstable.When I had the baby she was the center of his world but only for a while.When my daughter was a few months old I found out he was cheating while I was pregnant with more than one girls.I confronted him and yk it was lame ass excuses and apologies and whatever.I tried to keep my distance,at one point I left and Idk why but I couldn’t stay away so as soon as he came running back I accepted him and him apologies.Later on I found out he was still seeing the same females and though I wanted a mommy and daddy household for my child I made up mind to leave for good this time.It didn’t work,I kept going back and forth with him though there was no trust.

But I was trying to do it for the baby.I finally realized it made no sense so I left and so he started to treat the baby like shxt.He doesn’t visit the baby,call or text to check on the baby,and he doesn’t finance the baby so I’m out here playing both roles on my own.I’m doing all of this while I’m only working part time and he is out with all these females using my child’s money to party and “hype..”I put a roof over my baby’s head,I make sure she’s healthily fed,I make sure she’s always presentable and clean,I buy her stuff satisfy her comfort and I try to take her out as often as I can to give her experience and exposure. Pinky this one really switched up on and I pray no other young females won’t have to go through this because I swear i have never been suicidal before and all this overthinking is making me think like that but I thank God for my baby because she is keeping my sanity.I cannot afford the life I want for her yet but I’m getting there and I WILL give it to her as long
as I’m alive. It might take I little while because I hustle with my legs closed but I hustle like a man because I think my child deserves the world✊ I hope other females like me don’t lose hope because the struggle is real but so is God.Btw pinky,if you know of any job opportunities/vacancies available in the Mandeville region I’ll always be in the comments🙏