PREGNANT BUT NOT WITH BOYFRIEND

HMID even though I’m using one of my small business pages. I just really need to vent and I have no friends or anyone I can talk to. Sometimes I’m just so overwhelmed and don’t know what to do
Been in a relationship with a guy almost 2 years now however we moved in together mid last year. I’m 19 right now and he’s 8 years older than I am but he doesn’t look his age. I’m now pregnant for him and I’m almost 7 months so I’m trying my best not to stress myself or my baby out. I started a job last year and I met another boy, he was young and I really didn’t like him but one night he texted me and asked if I reached home so I replied and yes thank you with a small heart emoji. I’m not one to delete messages so my bf saw it and held it over my head especially because the boys use to call call me phone until I had to block him. That’s done. Fast forward to October my bf went on a work trip because he’s a tour operator so they have travel agents who they have to travel the island with and stay
At the hotels with them. He or his brother does this job because they are the drivers who bring the agents around. He came home now and everything weird, I can’t touch his phone or anything. So one morning I got a glimpse of his phone and saw some kissing emoji being sent and I glimpsed the name. So I asked who that was and he kept saying its his cousin. I asked his mom but he knew I would so he asked her to lie for him so she did. I don’t remember how but I managed to see again and I called his mom and she told me the truth saying no, they don’t have a cousin by that name. Fine.
I hacked his whatsapp and I noticed they text and flirt all day but I didn’t get to see everything because by this he knew I hacked his phone. I got her number and called her (she’s German) she said she didn’t know he had a girlfriend and this and that. Fine, I thought it was over because she seemed like a nice person. After that, he had to give me his password and everything so I couldn’t find anything

But there’s something on Google (google activity) it tells you everything you do on your phone even if you delete stuff. So I noticed he downloaded a app (a calculator but it’s a secret app with whatsapp on it) he lied about it but unfortunately I couldn’t crack the code to the calculator. But anyways he deleted it because I’m very persistent and he can’t get away with anything. I can hack almost everything and I know where to look for things.
Everything kool down. January now, I found out I was pregnant and I told him and on that same day, I found a phone in the back of this car. I was shocked but there was a passcode so I could only confront him about it. I took out the sim and put it in my phone and add it on whatsapp and noticed my number was blocked and it was a dp from when he went to the hotel. He said its his friend phone and he even called the guy and they passed for each other. So I gave him back his sim and he said he would give his friend the phone back because his

Friend leave it in the car. Fast forward to April, I found the sim holder in my drawer hidden (we used to share the draw for papers and so on) so it look like he forgot to remove his sim card holder and I found out that he still had the phone from January up to that day. I was surprised. I once went home and when I came back, I checked him regulars phone and saw that he and the same woman shared a video call for almost one hour. He said he was telling her to leave a review on their website and get the other agents to do it as well (the company created a new website) so I’m like fine, I tried to look pass it. Anyways back to the secret phone. I found out and he said he doesn’t have the phone bla bla. So his birthday came and I had his phone and noticed that she sent him 100US for his birthday. I was like wtf, why is she sending you money if you guys haven’t spoken since the video call?? How did she know your PayPal information?? I asked that because I was the one who helped him with

His PayPal account about 2 weeks before. He said its not that complicated but I said I know how PayPal works, she will need your email address or PayPal link. He said she “assume ” the email and sent it. By this time, I’m a whole clown because obviously this boy think I’m stupid. He said he would message her in front of me and say thanks and he did that.
Anyways, I couldn’t let it rest , too much wasn’t adding up. So I followed her on IG and she followed me back and even messaged me! I was she happy she messaged me first because my bf would argue and ask why me a text her. She said you’re his gf right, how are you, I was just curious why you messaged me. So I replied and I explained why. I told her everything and she was acting surprised. She was even surprised when I told her I was pregnant and we have been living together like one year now. She said she would leave us alone and take her money back. She even told me the number he messaged her on and it’s the same number I found in

January so I knew he still had the phone for sure. I even went to lime to try and replace the number so I can have it to myself. Failed at that though, them say a him alone can replace it.
Anyways, they stopped talking but he went to Kingston last night and I sent a whatsapp message to the secret phone number (same number he said he wasn’t using again because he added it

To his car for tracking purposes) however, her birthday was two days ago I asked him why him still have that number on whatsapp, if he messaged her for her birthday but I strongly believe he did. He argues with me when I ask him anything and says he feels like he’s in prison. He said they weren’t in a relationship but I damaged their work relationship, I told him I don’t care, he knows alot of other travel agents who can give him customers. We can’t hold a descent conversation anymore, if I ask him little questions, he gets offended and says he’s in prison and this and that. I told him that he’s not the same person I met because we had a agreement. No cheating, we’ll just build together and have a nice family. That’s what we always talked about. Now he’s saying I broke that the moment I found a next man (the same ute me affi block) . Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning, he’s a good guy and everything because I’ve never had a problem with him and any local woman.

I get so overwhelmed sometimes, I just keep telling him I’m gonna leave him and I’m gonna go to the hospital and tell them to cut me and take the baby. Sometimes everything just seem like a problem but he has his way of making me feel good again. He does everything he’s supposed to do but this German woman became a huge problem for us and that brought our relationship downhill. I’m always crying because my hormones are all over the place but I don’t want to stress my baby out. I don’t really have anywhere to go until I have baby or anyone to talk to. But I think I need some space from him but as I said, no where to go. Any advice? I’ll be in the comments section. I just want to know how to handle myself without killing my baby from stress. And yes I work from home but I get paid once per month. I want to move out but I don’t have enough as yet. Advice. Please Post