Good morning HMID.
I need some very good advice .My life has been failing apart ever since I was born.I am 20 years old I literally have no one or nothing .When I was a child my mother left me with my dad .Then my father died when I was nine .I had to live with my aunt for almost five years it was a living hell .I been abused in every Ally ,mentally, physically ,and emotionally .I never been loved from my father passed away.I lived with numerous family member but it was all the same .As far as realtionships go I been with many men seeking to find a home and love all I got was babies.I have tired everything possible to make my life at least 50 percent okay but all I do is fail miserably .My father not even dead left a rice grain so u know I not even have a start not even a home to lay my head From I been a baby I been all about..I think I honestly I never got a fare chance in life .I have two kids a boy and a girl they are beautiful.one is five one is I year and 9 months.
.my son lives with his foster parents .I have my daughter . I’m thinking of sending her to child care .I don’t want her all bout with me .For one she hella beautiful .She sooooooooo intelligent 😔❤️❤️❤️😩 I know if I keep her she will not properly cared for and will suffer right with me.poor baby see me a cry and hungry to and a wipe me tear cuz me a bawl and I tell mi hush.She a just one 😔.i think the system will care her she will get meals and kids to play with.she will be okay .maybe she won’t get that motherly love .I m only trying to get her in just for a Year and a half or soo.I PROMISE I’ll GO GET HER as soon as I get a chance to build myself.My baby’s father does nothing for her obviously I don’t have to elaborate about that.
I been to school but never finished cuz I wasn’t financially stable. So I never achieved anything or have any qualification.I have seek jobs but the pay are shitty and I have nobody to keep my baby.Some time I’m a private escort .But the pay is sort of okay but I have to wait for work or be summoned to actually earn some money .Ass up face down! 😭😭😭😭sometime mi not even want to go .If I don’t go my baby die of hunger.I don’t even trust my family to keep her becuz I rember when I was smaller I had a older cuz that use to finger out my vagina from I was really young so I Worst dont trust r like them.When I complained they said I was a lier and he continued.Few other males in my family did me dirty too.I’m so numb ,hella weak , angry and sad .I’m falling apart and I’m giving up on myself.Getting really slim and ugly .Hate myself.smh I swear I don’t wanna wake up to face the other days.
It’s like I’m cursed or something .No matter how I try.People have tried to help me no lie but only to a cetain extent .People always wanna use me and fuck me out and leave me in the same position.my son has been in the home from he was one they T ook him from me cuz I was really young I had him at fourteen.I can’t even keep my children. All people do is judge me and tell me to do more shit.I don’t wanna run anymore I want to take charge of my life rent or build a home sen my child to skool and just be happy for once Live like a normal person and not like mad people or a vagabond .I am now on my last. I feel I have a better chance when my daughter is in a facility it will give me the ability to seek out more work and opportunities. I NEED HELP OR SOME ADVICE.
Oh Wow. I’m going out on the limb to say you I sense your post to be 100% genuine. You do lovw your babies.
You are smart, but you lonely in this world. I iniw that feeling. Money alone won’t solve your problems.
If you know you can get the children back once you on your feet then I’ll sidw with you placing the baby into state care doe the rime being. You nees to get a trade to start off. I will NOT condemn you for escorting because it serves your immediate need and guvea you control of how you eat and feed the baby.
What is it that you NEED the most right now? Steady lodgings to gain employment or vocational training?
How do i get in touch with this person met? I would like to help her well at least financially.
Listen pray God is willing and able. Next step birth control is free try not to get pregnant again until you are settled with a man who truly loves you. If you are willing and humble to work a normal job leave a contact email in the comments I will contact you. But must stay strong women across the globe as gone through worst than you and fight. There’s hope don’t wear your scars God will see you through.
How can people be disliking a positgive comment like this offering help to this young lady? Some a onoo fi gwey and come offa Met site…ole craases onoo be
You need professional help. None of us regular bloggers would be able to address the depth of the pain and emotional void that is within you. I believe that there are programs in place that do not cost any money to help those with post traumatic stress disorder, abuse and neglect issues, as well as sexual molestation. If you could say which city you are living in perhaps someone can direct you to an office for you to start getting the care you need. You have youth on your side so all is not lost, there is time to turn your story around to one of redemption and triumph. Do not give up! There are many here with with a similar history to yours who have beat the odds and are shining starts today, even Oprah has a similar history and I am sure not even she envisioned the life she is living today when she was your age. Like you she gave birth to a child at 14.
Please check back in, either email Met, or drop an anonymous comment here letting us know where you live so that we can provide you the necessary contact detail for you to start the process. My heart goes out to you, and I am fully confident that your story can and will change to one of joy and happiness.
Hush. Jah know! Mi speechless. Mi dus waaa help har. Everything aguh be alright I know it nuh seem suh right now but it will be. You will be rescued but yuh need counselling damn mi feel it.
I can relate to your plight to some extent with absolute certainty. Let me say this, KEEP YOUR EYES ON YOUR BABY GIRL.
One day while being jobless, hungry, feeling hopeless, and being constantly abused by relatives & close family, the Lord spoke to me and said ;
“Get dress in the best clothes you have, go sit at the bus stop and when you see the kindest face, introduce yourself and ask that person about any job openings”
I DID, that was in August of 1993, I am now Ops. Mngr for that company.
I say that to say this, hope is not lost, be still and listen to God with a sincere heart, I am confident you will find your break through.